Ever feel in the way? That's how I feel right now...


I wish it would just go away...

Current Mood: uncomfortable

Well, it's not far down to paradise, at least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away and find tranquility
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see
Believe me

It's not far to never-never land, no reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy of innocence again
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see
Believe me


Sailing takes me away to where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

Fantasy, it gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All caught up in the reverie, every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me?

Sailing takes me away to where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

Well it's not far back to sanity, at least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away and find serenity
Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see
Believe me

Sailing takes me away to where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

( Private to Rabastan )

( Private to Bella )

I see a light...a thin light near the top of the stairs...

My back hurts so much...

I don't know if I can be pleasant in this situation...no wand...no self defense....Merlin knows what will happen...

It's dark, and cold. The steps don't make for a good bed. I have no idea where I am right now. All I know is I can hear people walking past, but I don't really see them.

Stuck inside the subconcious of my own head. Alone...

Current Mood: crushed

( private: self )

( Private to Rab: )

Does anyone have a good recipe they've tried?

Current Mood: cheerful

Comfortable. Comfortable in your own skin. Comfortable with someone else. Comfortable in a home. Comfortable in life. All the same word, all very different meanings in each statement.

I've learned to become comfortable. In pretty much any meaning. I don't worry about becoming bored anymore. I have found things to occupy my time. Busy hands are the key to not causing trouble.

I've been on a voyage of self discovery. I've grown up...it makes a nice change.

Private to self: Rabastan can break through if he tries
And it's taken me this long to make things right. Trust me when I say that I won't be making the same mistakes again. This time will be different.

Current Mood: content

Life is interesting. Even a second chance at life....It makes you wonder sometimes...what you did in your previous one to bring you back. I'm glad that it happened though. Especially now.

( Heavily warded to only Rabastan )

I don't think anyone has seen nor heard from the dark lord in quite some time. I wonder what he's up to...

Current Mood: cheerful

I'm so bored...

( Private )

Current Mood: bored

Heavily Warded to Death Eaters only

First of all. There seems to be something I must clear up. When I said "You'll get what's coming to you." To Rabastan, I did not in anyway say I was going to be the one to do it. Nor did I say it as a threat. Karma's a bitch. Simple as that. I have no intention of harming him in any way.

Now, onto the second topic I wanted to discuss. I no longer wish to be loyal or a servant to the Dark Lord. After a test that ensued last night I learned the person who killed me. I hadn't known before, but I do now.

It was none other than the Dark Lord himself. I don't believe this to be an accident. Therefore I throw away my allegiance. The pain was all too clear. The pain was all too intense. And I can still feel it now. This was no accident. Rest assured.

Current Mood: bitchy

Hmm..how to start...I suppose I should start with a hello, but who really does that now a days.

I fell through the veil early this morning. Landed with a great thud actually, and felt the pain of my death all over again. Very interesting. But to be back an breathing? Bloody brilliant that is.

I remember having an out of body experience...feeling people step over my body in the final battle...so many people stepping over my lifeless form. Was a very intriguing experience.

But, it's time to focus on being alive. And to go shopping. I don't really fancy staying in the clothes I died in. Not on your life. Or death. Whichever you prefer.

Current Mood: sore

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